Monday, September 16, 2013

Lights up my life

So, it's been a while...a long while. This tends to be how I start my blog posts nowadays. Life is crazy, not that that's new news. Many times I sit down thinking I will write something, but I just end up staring at a blank page. I mean I always have something to say; however, I just don't always know what exactly to say or how I should say something.

As I reflect on my life, I am so blessed by the path God has taken me through. At times, it has been frustrating and saddening. Other times, it has been exhilarating and exciting. Through each situation, it is only because of my relationship with God that I am still standing strong. As of the last month and a half, God has brought a person into my life to stand by me in all these moments. I am beyond blessed by my family, as they have always been there and will always be there. However, I am not referring to them. God has been so gracious in letting my desire for a relationship that pursues the idea of marriage to mature and has recently gifted me with the most amazing person in my life, my best friend of almost three years, Gabe. He is the only man I could imagine standing by me through all my trials and triumphs.

Our story is unique, special, and complicated. But, it's OUR story, and it doesn't compare to any Hollywood movie ever scripted. Here's the short end of the story:

  • Boy meets girl when Superbowl party hopping with friends on February 7, 2010. 
  • Boy and girl become friends over the course of that next year.
  • Girl falls for boy at the end of 2010.
  • Boy (not really knowing her true feelings) goes away to training and then war.
  • Girl is heartbroken.
  • Girl and boy stay in touch through letters.
  • Girls discovers she will never be able to get over her feelings for the amazing boy.
  • Girl begins the avoidance tactic to protect her heart.
  • Boy and girl go on a missions trip to Africa.
  • Girl is still avoiding but boy begins pursuing.
  • Upon coming back, girl lets down a wall and allows boy to enter.
  • Boy states his true feelings.
  • Girl is left speechless and FINALLY confesses her feelings.
  • Boy and girl officially begin courting as of August 19, 2013.
So obviously there is much more to this magnificent story. However, the most important part is that there is this truly amazing guy who wants to get to know me and wants to really pursue me and this idea of marriage.

This man, who has stolen my heart, lights up my life. The most wonderful part of it all is how much he loves Jesus and has a passionate relationship with Him. Gabe shares my dreams for adventure and supports my desires for the future. I am completely smitten by him and can't wait to see how OUR life will unfold together. God has a wonderful plan for my life and I'm so glad He has my best interests in mind. Looking at my life, I'm continually reminded of my life verse, Habakkuk 2:3: "For the vision is yet for an appointed time; but at the end it will speak, and it will not lie. Though it tarries, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry."

I can never doubt for even a second that God's timing isn't perfect!