Teardrops

No, I'm not singing or referencing, for that fact, a Taylor Swift song. However, I thought the title was fitting for my crazy emotions that I've had over the past few days. For those who know me know that I don't cry easy. Pretty much something has to seriously bury deep or really touch my heart in order for it to cause me to cry. I feel like I've been crying quite a bit during my time with God. I literally bawled for an hour yesterday in my alone time with God. Then, I heard a song this morning while I was on my way back from the gym that caused me start crying again. So, I decided to ask God why I had such a burden.

Here's what I found out, I wasn't crying for me. I was crying for someone else. I have a such a burden for someone that I know, and I know God has given me a burden to intercede for them. The worst part is not hearing from the person for a couple days. I know that there is so much this person is battling. I have absolutely NO IDEA how they are REALLY feeling; however, it's frustrating not hearing anything. However, I continue to let them know that I am praying for them and that I'm here to listen when they're ready. I'll just wait for them until they are ready to talk. In the meantime, I will continue to intercede for them, even if this means that I experience this new thing of crying during my time with God.

I have to say I'm glad to realize that I'm not depressed; however, this burden to intercede is something that is new for me. My mom was and still is always one to get heavy burdens for people and cry and intercede. I'm used to seeing it, not experiencing it. God has definitely been challenging me to learn a new way of walking with Him.