Busy, busy, busy

I've realized that I'm so GLAD God has control of my life. With working part-time at the high school, working at EMU, taking two online classes, and soon to be starting worship school, I have found that I am just slightly overwhelmed...but I LOVE being busy and always having something to do. Have I told you how much I LOVE my job?!?! Well, I guess I haven't posted since I found out I got the position, so you wouldn't know, haha. However, I'm SUPER rusty on all the special education laws, how to run an IEP/MET, etc. Soooo, I'm spending a lot of time trying to get caught up and re-educated on everything. I still have to put in three days a week at EMU, which is a bugger with working at a high school that is an hour away from campus. My two online classes are keeping me occupied in my free time. Then, I start worship school in a couple weeks, so that will be squeezing the rest of the free time I did have.


So back to why I'm sooo glad God is in control. I used to think I was ready for a relationship. Really, I thought everything was perfect timing. I would start my job, and I'd be dating that one I would plan on marrying. Everything would be a fairy tale, right? Wrong! If I threw a relationship into the mix of everything I have right now, something would definitely be suffering, and it most likely would not be the relationship. I would probably put my classes on the line, or as a friend of mine said, not do worship school. Give me another 9 months to get adjusted to my job, finish classes for this year, finish my graduate assistantship for good, and be almost done with worship school, then maybe reevaluate the whole concept of a relationship. By this time next year hopefully I'll be full time employed.; I will only have two classes left to finish my Master's, but that will be done in a year (one class per semester); and I will only have maybe a week or two left of worship school. I will be ready for a relationship. I will be at the point where I'm ready to marry someone and devote my time to that person.


It's amazing how in such a short time everything changes. As I've said before, some change is frustrating and hard to get used to, but the other types of change are AMAZING and WONDERFUL and...well you get my point. As I'm going through both types of change, I am having to give it to God. He knows me better than I could ever know myself. I mean, come on, He created me. He is all-knowing. He knew the day I came into existence, and He knows the day I will leave this world. He also knows everything that will happen in between. I'm learning to live by the phrase: "Let go, and let God." If I just give it to Him, He will carry me through it. I'm so in awe of my Savior. As I face daily struggles, and every once and a while question, "why?" I'm brought back to the idea that God IS in control, and He only wants what is best for me. There is a reason for everything, which reminds me of Ecclesiastes 3:

1 To everything there is a season,

       A time for every purpose under heaven:

       2 A time to be born,

And a time to die;

      A time to plant,

And a time to pluck what is planted;

       3 A time to kill,

And a time to heal;

      A time to break down,

And a time to build up;

       4 A time to weep,

And a time to laugh;

      A time to mourn,

And a time to dance;

       5 A time to cast away stones,

And a time to gather stones;

      A time to embrace,

And a time to refrain from embracing;

       6 A time to gain,

And a time to lose;

      A time to keep,

And a time to throw away;

       7 A time to tear,

And a time to sew;

      A time to keep silence,

And a time to speak;

       8 A time to love,

And a time to hate;

      A time of war,

And a time of peace.

 9 What profit has the worker from that in which he labors? 10 I have seen the God-given task with which the sons of men are to be occupied. 11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also He has put eternity in their hearts, except that no one can find out the work that God does from beginning to end.

 12 I know that nothing is better for them than to rejoice, and to do good in their lives, 13 and also that every man should eat and drink and enjoy the good of all his labor—it is the gift of God.

 14 I know that whatever God does,

      It shall be forever.

      Nothing can be added to it,

      And nothing taken from it.

      God does it, that men should fear before Him.

       15 That which is has already been,

      And what is to be has already been;

      And God requires an account of what is past.

I'm really honored to serve Jesus. He is my cornerstone. In Him, I have a hope and a future. In Him I live, move, and have my being. He is my everything!