Rejection and Love

I know this sounds like a strange thing to talk about, but it's everything God has been dealing with me. I'm sooo stupid and didn't realize He's been trying to have me let go of all the rejection I have been through. I felt like something was hindering my relationship and something was definitely causing me to have an attitude, but I never would have figured that was the problem.


If you look back on my posts or talked to me, God has been focusing me on this concept of love. I just thought it was because He was reminding me of His awesome, amazing, and relentless love. However, He was doing more than just that. He was trying to bring me to this idea of the rejection that I never dealt with. I thought I never let those things bother me, but deep down inside, tucked way in the back, I felt rejected in many areas, and I would avoid situations because I didn't want to be rejected.


God didn't create me to feel this way. Think of how everyday, millions of people reject Jesus and blasphemy His name, but He does not let it bother Him. I want to be that way. I want to be so in tune with God and His plan for my life that I do not let the petty things of this earth bother me.


As my mom and I were talking, she urged me to figure out what was causing this change in my attitude. I spent that entire day consulting God about it, but I didn't seem to hear anything. However, Hannah and I had a girls night that night, and we were doing some venting/sharing. Afterward, we decided to pray together. While we were praying I heard God tell me to let go of the spirit of rejection and walk in newness with Him. At that moment I started crying because instantly I felt as if a burden was taken off my shoulders and I was free. I shared with my mom what God revealed to me and more crying ensued. Ever since then, I feel like a completely different person. In a way, it's like I'm walking on air. I won't share the details of what caused me to take on this spirit of rejection because it is unnecessary. However, I will share that because of the amazing love of Jesus, I am free and loved!!

That night, as I went home and spent some more alone time with Jesus, I was reminded of Jeremiah 31:3.

"I have loved you with an everlasting love; therefore with lovingkindness I have drawn you."

Going back to this idea of love, it's unreal! I really do serve a God who only wants the best for me. I serve a God who loves me unconditionally. I serve a God who draws me into a relationship with Him. How could I not want that? Every person is hardwired to receive love and give love. Why not set those emotions and feelings towards the One who died for my sins, the One who created me, and the One who is always with me, living inside me?

Lord, You won't relent until You have it all, so here is my heart!