You have won my heart

So I got a text from a friend of mine from Ghana a few days...yes, as in Ghana, Africa. We met while I was in Zambia and thanks to technology have been able to stay connected. He is such a blessing in my life, as he is so passionate about his relationship with Jesus. Anyway, one day he just asked me the following: "What has the Lord been teaching you?" I had to think and reflect...what has God really been teaching me?

Over the last month, God has been just pouring out and displaying His amazing love, whether it is through scripture, action, or song. People who really know me know that I am always questioning whether I'm following the will of God. Sometimes it can tend to leave me...well...a bit distressed. ;) I'm so honored to be where I am at, but it is that unknown future that scares me...literally. Sometimes, all I need is God to just surround me with His love to calm me down.

However, how many people can say that they are 100% confident in their future (how it will turn out) and can number their days? Honestly, I don't think one person REALLY can. As I was talking with a friend of mine today, one who's married, we were talking about the "game" of relationships between guys and girls. Her comment was how she was glad that she was married because she really doesn't miss the game of trying to figure out if a guy was trying to pursue her...as the way guys think and girls think is SO VERY DIFFERENT! Sometimes I wished I could read a guys true motives...seriously! All selfish ambitions aside, you have no idea how much this would even help with teaching junior and senior boys.

Okay, so how is this related to my original thought process? Well, God is continually reminding me that He is the only one that has not only won my heart but keeps it close to His. He is also the one that is in control.

Struggling to fall asleep one night last week, I decided to turn on my iPod. The song that comes on, as I'm trying to shut my mind off is "Song of Love" by Jaye Thomas. It totally broke my heart right at that moment. I realized God truly holds my heart in His hands. The best part of it all is that God's love for me makes me want to pursue harder after Him. I truly want to sit at His feet and hear His heart beat.

As I was texting with my friend from Ghana, he wrote the following to me: "You should always remember that you are a great lady...God is nearer to you more than you can think of. Just as Deborah [had a] huge responsibility and anointing, so you are." It was so what I needed to hear. However, I didn't really know I needed it until I read it. God has such perfect timing. His perfect timing is always a reminder that He cares for me and not only has He won my heart but He is continually pursing to win my heart.

To close, two verses are brought to mind as I finish this post:

• “I will love You, O Lord, my strength. The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.” (Psalm 18:1-2)

• “I love the Lord, because He has heard my voice and my supplications. Because He has inclined His ear to me, therefore I will call upon Him as long as I live.” (Psalm 116:1-2)

I am just so honored to serve a God who loves me with a fiery passion. I am blessed that He takes the time to display and remind me of His love for me. God is just so good!

Here is the song that started the thought process regarding God's love for me. :)